That’s what I wanted to say to everyone around me today.  The builders turned up ridiculously early and that started off the day in fast pace – all day. Just now, in this moment, is the first time since 7 a:m that I’ve stopped running on full steam.

However, today I had to do something very important and close to my heart. It would have been my Mum and step-dad’s 2nd  wedding anniversary today. Mum and Pete married in 2005, but she became ill with cancer very soon after. She died on 12th November 2006. I rang Pete to see how he was and we had a long chat about my Mum. He was okayish, bless his heart. He has kept up with all our birthdays since my Mum died – even the inlaws! He’s a lovely man and my Mum was extremely happy in the last year of her life. It was the best year we spent together too. I miss you, Mam.

I wanted to be still today, to write in my journal, plan for the boys birthday party and just be creative, but it wasn’t to be. I had to put that aside and just be in the chaos around me.   And that was meant to be – plenty of  company in the way of people ringing, friends and family dropping by. The universe knew what I needed, more than I did.

 But now all is quiet and I’ve got time to be still, reflect and be grateful for what I do have…